"It is impossible to feel grateful and depressed in the same moment" - Naomi Williams
It has definitely been a rougher week than usual. Unfortunately I have to go upstate this weekend for a wake. Went out tonight for a little bit. It was a St. Patrick' Day Parade and even though work seemed to be a bit of an endurance run, I wanted to go out and see some friends I haven't seen in a while. Being that I don't know what this week will bring, I chose a task that I think is necessary for me in this time of my life. Heck, I think it is an important task for everyday of my life. The essence of it is too list on this blog 5 things I am thankful for in my life.
When I first did tasks like this, it would always be the same thing pretty much everyday. My friends, my family, my health. It became pretty much a cut and paste operation. That being said, I felt like I was really missing the point of what being grateful was. To my way of thinking everyday offers things to be grateful for.
Thanks for Today:
1-Customer John and Jane Smith at work: Okay obviously not their real names. After a while of doing sales, I pretty much assume what people are gonna be like in the first 15 seconds. After working with them for a while, I actually built up a pretty good rapport with them. They were a lot cooler than I thought they were gonna be. I kinda opened up and joked with them. They definitely taught me that most things aren't what they always seem. Thanks for coming in today guys.
2-My friends: I know what I said prior to this list. But what I am grateful to them for, and for two specifically, is that I saw a side of them that I had never seen before. And one I knew all my life (well pretty much). I guess because both of these friends are with me in the crazy depressing things happening these past few weeks. I opened up and they opened up and I realized things aren't as bad as I thought. That I am not as alone on this ride as I thought. I was feeling guilty about how bad a friend I am, but they taught me I don't have to be so hard on myself (my favorite hobby).
3-Work being later ( I went in at 1:30): Man I was tired last night. Really, really shot (heck read my blog). I have been opening lately, so for me to come in late was definitely a Godsend. I know it is simple, but I am really grateful for that. Sleep is important right?
4-Being reminded that great change is sometimes precipitated by hardship and pain. From what you say, ironically watching the Green Hornet movie. I started watching it more for getting out of my head, but it turned into me noticing that it was his fathers death that started the domino effect for his change. From party animal with no goal other than to party as hard as he could to his father dying and him finding his purpose. Stupid? Maybe, but noticing in the little things, like an okay movie, means we are more able to see it in everything (I hope).
5-Rain: Okay my car was looking kind of dirty due to me not getting a "car wash" for a week or four. You might think a cop out and yes me kicks got soaked a few times, but my car is clean now.
Thank you for reading;)
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