And so it goes...

I am posting a pic of the Green Lantern Emblem because one, he was my fave when I was a kid and two, I like the whole symbolism of creating anything from your imagination. Enuff said...

I've been doing private journals as of late which made this page a little bit less inspired. I am hoping to journal in this blog more and try to catch up with where I am now.

As for last weeks challenge and this week challenge. Last week I focused on passion. They do say follow your passions. I was doing a lot of little challenges as well. I failed one of the big ones. I didn't realize how big a task a 1000 piece puzzle was but I definitely was not able to finish it in a week. As for the passion part, I started thinking what I would do if no decisions could be made because of money but from straight passion. Almost as if passion were the new currency. I have to admit, it was tougher then I thought it was gonna be. I had to start thinking in different terms and after a while I would revert back to making money or at least how it could possibly turn into something lucrative. I also enjoyed a few books and a such. Had some new foods I haven't had and add to that it was my birthday led to me having more fun then I really should have lol.

This weeks challenge is about giving. Something in line of Random Acts of Kindness. I felt resistant  somewhat with this one. I thought I was more generous. I guess we are always more of something in our minds. It is the little things I guess, and in some ways I believe that some people may misinterpret some of these acts but I do think it is important to trod through. I still have a few days to on this one.

I have been busy in a lot of ways and somewhat scattered in my focus. It's been affecting me in little ways. I know that there is a benefit in doing these little challenges but I have to say that they are taxing on the "mental game". One of the things I have been looking at are some of the Buddhist types of beliefs of accepting what is. The total embracing of everything going on in ones life. I guess this lack of focus has something to teach me about focus ironically. I may be incredibly tired right now so much of this may not be making sense, but I accept that. I have to say that I learned a lot this week. It was a trying adventure but many lessons were gleaned. I will definitely have to post that story next time. Till then, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..........

Insight

Watching "Good Will Hunting" and realizing a lot of things in my life. I feel the movie has always hit a spot with me. I think that there is a lot of this movie in my life. Not the genius elements of the movie, but more the life growth in it. Damn late night television.

It's been a weird couple of weeks. More in a good way. Spent the better part of the past few weeks analyzing things that kind of through me. I would notice very subtly things in that I was resistant to. It was little things. Not that there are things that I don't want to do and I am indifferent to. More like I am resistant to and I am slightly on the left of afraid of doing it. Not fear just a pull towards not wanting to do it even when it shouldn't make a difference. Okay now I sound sort of crazy. Oh well.

Things that I am slight resistant to:

-Submerging myself in freezing water (conquered)
-Fasting with no food or water for 24 hours (to be attempted on Yom Kippur)
-Playing speed chess against the people in the park
-putting together a 1000 piece puzzle
-BJJ Tournaments

Well that's all I could think of for now. Anyhow, some of these might not be specific challenges but just small here and there challenges which I will take on along with the other stuff I will be doing.

Last weeks challenge was to post on eBay. How stupid is that? But I am resistant to dealing with the trouble of doing it and getting ripped off. I had a few bumps in setting  it up and I am only selling some books. Still learning my way around it. I had to get a book and still don't know all the stuff on it. But oh well.

This weeks challenge involves body language. I am doing the program of "You Say More Than You Think" by Janine Driver. After talking to some friends about this, I realize that I come off a little aloof. Some people have said that before they met me I came off as unfriendly. I have to agree. I think it is more shyness than anything else. After reading the book I realized that there are a lot of things that we say subconsciously. Anyhow, it's late, I'm delirious and time for bed.